i had a dream where i was hideous. i was in a room full of mirrors. i was about 30 years old. i looked at my reflection and i looked truly disgusting. i was short and fat, had saggy boobs, a huge face with little eyes, frizzy balding hair, an unshapely mouth, and a red, meaty nose. i looked like the wicked witch of the waste when she turned old. i felt panicked and kept looking at my reflection in disbelief thinking something like “there’s nothing good about me now, i don’t have anything left”. my reflection was split in between the end of two mirrors. one was ugly and one was normal. when i finally found the reflection i thought was me i felt so relieved. my friends came into the room (they were all the age they are now) and i was relieved they didn’t see me like that. it felt like the ugly and normal reflection were both me, but i would have to try even harder to hide the ugly reflection because that was who i truly was/was becoming.
(Source: beard-oh, via daddyfuckedme)
even though i didn’t actually make it to bay to breakers i am just so glad i wasn’t the only one dressed up……..
I am tired and
I am no one and I have
Nothing good to say
(via kazukij)
